Saturday, December 27, 2008


I set my account to private. Oops.

For now, I have deleted everything negative from the past year or so.

The only way to move forward in life is to stop looking back.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Shots and a Surprise

I took Jilbaby in for his 2 month check up. Masha Allah he has grown! He is now 21 inches and weighs 13 lbs! He's a short blob of a baby!!

He took his vaccinations like a champ. Cried until I picked him up and fed him. Then he was out and has been in and out of sleep all afternoon.

The doctor had a little surprise for me though - his blood tested positive for Hemoglobin E.. Most likely from Dad. She says not to worry but is there anyone out there who can edumacate me on it?? I got a pamphlet from the doctor and looked up some sites online, but I like to learn about things from people with first-hand experience...

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

(Finally) My Birth Story Part 2

I left work that Friday afternoon feeling fine. Annoyingly well, to be exact. I made a mental plan in my head to do partake in any 'labor-inducing' act I could think of.

I came home and tried to convince H to take me to dinner downtown. We could do a lot of walking and then eat spicy Indian food. He was not down for that.

Or any other proposal I threw at him.

In the end we went to my friend's restaurant. Things were awkward. I was feeling guilty for making him miss work because I was convinced that I would be pregnant forever. Plus the fact that he didn't want to do ANYTHING - no walking, spicy good, food massage, and all that OTHER stuff you know that can possibly induce labor.

In fact things were so awkward that we sat and ate dinner in silence.

We came home and he went upstairs to spend quality time with himself. I stayed downstairs and watched TV. Funny how I can't remember what I was watching.

I started feeling stabbing pains in my stomach around 9:30. They weren't contractions, it felt like I ate something nasty and was going to throw up. But I did not. Instead I drank some water and lay on the couch.

After an hour I decided to go upstairs to my room to sleep. H was in the room playing a videogame and was so into it he didn't notice me coming in. I got in bed and went to sleep.

At around 12:30 am I woke up. The lights and TV were still on but my husband was not in the room. I figured he was downstairs taking a (gag) smoke break (double gag). I put my hand on my stomach and noticed something strange. The pain had gone away but my tummy had changed. Where normally I'd feel a preggo belly against my lower rib cage was.. well.. nothing. Flat. Gone.

"Did I drop that much that fast?!?!?!" I thought. A small voice in my head told me that this was it... just stand up and you will see. But I shrugged it off. Just to be safe I stood up and felt a dampness. My heart began to pound faster and faster. "NO WAY" I said out loud to myself.

I decided not to get ahead of myself and went to the bathroom. I could feel trickling but I tried to keep a level head, telling myself I could just be having an 'accident'.

I did my biz-nass in the bathroom and stood up. Then it was like Niagara Falls in my bathroom. MY WATER BROKE!!

I rushed downstairs to the front door and peeped through the peep hole to make sure H was outside. I saw the glow of his cigarette in the dark. I swung the door open and blurted "MY WATER BROKE!"

"What?" He was startled and confused.

"The baby is coming!!!"


We got to the hospital within 20 minutes. Alhamdulillah Jilbaby decided to come in the middle of the night!!

It was, as my doctor described, "A Beautiful Birth."

I had to take the epidural due to a dip in baby's heartbeat that occurred when they initially monitored me. It never dipped again throughout the rest of the labor, but in case the dip would lead to further complications, the doctor wanted to speed up the process with pitocin. I was fine with that.

And I held on for as long as I could until the back labor started!! Apparently Jilbaby was face up (or sunnyside up) but he turned around as I was pushing. Back labor felt even worse than "normal" labor!

H was a supportive as he could be. He was at a complete loss for words and didn't know how to help. I tried to tell him that all I wanted was for him to be near me and that would make me feel better but he couldn't see how that would make any pain go away. But he did the best he could and was by my side through the whole labor.

When Jilbaby came up, per our instructions, the doctor and nurses did not say a word. We were as quiet as possible as H and I marvelled at our son and the doctor and nurse finished their work. I was allowed to keep him with me for as long as I wanted before they took him away to be cleaned, vaccinated and eye-gooed.

It was .. amazing...

On my cue they wrapped him up and handed him to H and he sat in a corner to whisper the Adhan in his ear.

The doctor afterwards couldn't stop gushing over the beauty of it all.

What can I say? Jilbabble's got like that, baby ;-)

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Birth Story part 1

Salaams to everyone out there and thank you so much for all your kind words and dua for the birth of Jilbaby.

Here is the first part of my birth story.. which pretty much starts a week prior to the day my son was born.

Here goes...


H came up the day after this post. He arrived by 6 pm. I was already exhausted (yeah it was a Sunday but the last week of pregnancy totally drained me) and taking a shower. He knocked on the bathroom door and poked his head in. Said salaam and chit chatted for a minute, and then he ran downstairs to pray and then started to make dinner.

"Wow," I thought, "Things really are turning around."

My last week at school was very hard. I ended up going home early a few days because I was just too tired. Sleep was becoming my frenemy - some nights were good, most were bad.

But H was totally awesome. Very attentive and helpful. Optimistic for the future because he had some promising leads for work (he's trying to do his own thing).

My 38 week check up was Thursday May 1st. My doc checked my cervix and THERE WAS NO PROGRESS FROM THE WEEK BEFORE. I was totally bummed out because I had H come up in a hurry in fear that I'd go into labor without him. Allah is the best of planners, I knew this.. and I couldn't dictate when Jilbaby would come. Still I felt guilty as we walked out of the doctor's office with no new news. It felt like this pregnancy would never end. I could tell H was anxious and maybe even agitated. He left his work and came up here thinking I'd deliver any day. He gets no paid time off and actually risks losing his job for leaving work for a long period of time.

The next day, Friday May 2nd, I was feeling fine. Neither my back nor my front were sore. I had a spring in my step but a scowl on my face. This baby will never come out, I remarked to some coworkers.

"No Jilbabble, this is the calm before the storm!" Predicted one teacher.

I hoped she was right.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Jilbaby Has Left the Womb!

He's heeeeeeeeeere!

Alhamdulillah everything went well. I'll post my 'birth story' when I catch up with my life at home and get my rhythm back..

But here are the details:

Born early Saturday morning - May 3

Weight: 6 lbs 4 oz

Length: 18.5 in.

Healthy and really really loud..... :-)

I think I might rename my blog "How Jilbabble Lost Her Sleep"..

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Fearing the Unknown

I finally decided to talk to H last night. I'd been avoiding him since Thursday evening. Just cause I was feeling sensitive and hurt by what he had said to me.

We talked about the l&d and H is scared to death.

First he asked me who was going to be there for the birth. I said I just wanted him. This scares him because he doesn't know what to expect. I encouraged him to look up things on the internet, and I tried to explain what he could expect. Plus he doesn't know what to do. I told what my expectations were:

- to be by my side
- massage me if needed
- help me move around if able
- say words of encouragement
- be a rock for me when i feel weak

He has been forewarned that I could be very grouchy and snappy. He is afraid he'll take it personally and get offended. The fact that he knows to expect this makes me think that this won't happen.

Then he said something that made me laugh.

"I want your mom to come so she can help me while I help you."

The coach needs his own coach.

Well, at least he admits it.

The rest of this post has been deleted from this blog, and therefore, my memory.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

It Could Be Anytime!!

Made some major progress 'down there' and the dr said there is a possibility that I could go into labor anytime. It is hard to calculate because in the end, allahu alim. But the changes in the last week makes things look like baby is speeding his way out.

Last Week:

1 cm dilated
25% effaced
No softening of the c-vix

This week:

1.5 cm dilated
75% dilated
C-vix is verrry soft
Baby dropped and head in place!

I'm finally feeling some excitement now!

And lots of pressure in the area. Having Braxton Hicks contractions and some minor pains..

Now the question is whether or not to have H high-tail it over here?? Will Jilbabble make it another week?????

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Any Mom's out there have/had clueless husbands?

My H is extremely clueless about pregnancy, labor and delivery. He is not the type to read books and take classes. I read books but not so much into taking lamaze or anything like that. Anyway...

H has no idea what to expect with labor. I was talking with him the other night and I mentioned something about how labor can take a long time. He was shocked. He figured I'd feel some kind of pain and my water would break.. then we'd go to the hospital and I'd push a few times and then we'd be done.

I had to school him. And now he's all freaked out.

Tried to explain the whole mucus plug/water break/dilation/contractions. Not sure if it all registered. (English is his 2nd language.. but still..)

Now he is scared and doesn't want to be in the room. Too bad it's not an option.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Things I Need To Do Before Jilbaby Comes

Bored. I feel the sudden urge to make lists.. I can put on paper all the crap in my brain that is already internally stressing me out. Then, not only will it be stressing me out on the inside.. but I can visually see it. This will do one of two things - either motivate me to actually get them down NOW, or just stress me out some more, causing me to sit on the couch and resort to channel surfing.

Ahhh channel surfing.. the one sport that I am good at. Haven't done it in sooo long...



1 - Wash, sort, and put away all new baby clothes.
2 - Pick up crib mattress and place it in crib. Then put sheets on it.
3 - Pack for hospital.
4 - Shampoo carpet to get out those annoying and gross cat puke stains.
5 - Clean bedroom ~ go thru drawers, closet. Need to stop being a pack rat.


1 - Clean my workspace.
2 - Prepare my lessons for this week
3 - Prepare outline of lessons to be covered for the rest of the year for my sub.

Technically I see only 8 items on my list.. making my stress go down a little. Doesn't seem so bad right???


In a strange turn of events, H is trying to sell his car so he can by a four door suitable for a family.

The rest of this post has been deleted from this blog, and therefore, my memory. 12/27/08

Fat Baby

Last night I dreamt that I had my baby and he weighed 11 lbs.

Then I was mad the whole time because my parents kept putting him in jeans, when I was very specific about letting him be in comfy pajamas.

24 more days left..

Friday, April 18, 2008

Sorry for the delay

I've been sooo tired lately.

The last few days have been better. The sleeping meds didn't do much for me - I took them two or three times.. and yes I slept 8 hours but I never felt refreshed in the morning or any less exhausted during the daytime.

For some reason.. my mad will-power skillz have worked. I laid off any form of caffeine this week and resisted temptation to nap in the afternoons after work. I stayed on my feet.. did not enter my bedroom until after 8 pm... and I have been able to sleep better. Not like before.. but definitely better, alhamdulillah.


Had my first weekly appt yesterday. Everything looks good. Already dilated to 1 cm, but it doesn't look like I'll be having baby any time soon ~ Allahu Alim.


I FINALLY scheduled an appt to tour the hospital where I am delivering. It is on the other side of town - Insha Allah I won't go into labor during rush hour traffic cuz it might take me an hour to get there!


Sorry this is not very interesting. My mind is a bowl of mush. Maybe tomorrow I'll write more...

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Today Sucked


Everything went wrong but I dealt with it with my usual awkward (sp?) laughter and race to wipe my tears off in the restroom.

Work stuff.

I can handle it.. it's just that I am sleep deprived, ya'll.

So I had a check up with the ob and was given some meds to help sleep. I don't think I've had a solid nights sleep in at least 2 or 3 months. I'm at the point where I am delirious and I can't even fake it anymore.

I've started to bark at the older kids at school who totally don't deserve it.

So tonight, IA, Jilbabble will get much needed rest.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Moving On

So over talking about the C-Word. It is a Sunnah of the Prophet PBUH and I'm not going to spend any more time discussing it.

Thanks manly men for your two cents.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

I'm a muslim. The C-word is part of my religion. If you're going to hate on the Muslims.. go hate on the Jews too cuz they practice the C-word as well.

Yes I posted my birth plan. Yes I asked for feedback. But ya'll never commented on anything else since I opened this blog like THREE years ago (archives are not that old only cuz I've deleted my blog a few times).

Is there some kind of C-word emergency alert that goes off anytime someone types the word on a blog or something.. and then men with penile issues feel free to say whatever they want?

Mark, I appreciate your comments.

Hugh and Ron or whatever your name was.. get a life.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Birth Plan

OK I'm bored... Normally I'm not so 'planny plan plan' about my life.. and even more so while pregnant. Like lamaze - not interested in sharing my pregnancy and labors with others.. and the thought of simulating labor in front of other couples just grosses me out. And talking about cerv**** and va-hoo-haas while there are other men in the room.. um.. no thanks.

So check out my birth plan (if you can stay awake through it.. I hope I don't bore anyone) and offer me any advice. I'm getting nervous about labor.

Thanks for all the comforting words, by the way ladies.. I am feeling much better now. May Allah bless you all for caring so much for this little jilbabbly whiny baby brat...

# I would like to be free to walk around during labor.
# I wish to be able to move around and change position at will throughout labor.
# I would like to be able to have fluids by mouth throughout the first stage of labor.
# I will be bringing my own music to play during labor.
# I would like the environment to be kept as quiet as possible.
# I would like the lights in the room to be kept low during my labor.
# I would like to wear contact lenses or glasses at all times when conscious.
I would like the option of showering to relax and manage pain

# I would prefer to be allowed to try changing position and other natural methods (walking, nipple stimulation) before pitocin is administered.

# I realize that many pain medications exist I'll ask for them if I need them.
# I would like to have a walking epidural (low dose).

# Unless absolutely necessary, I would like to avoid a Cesarean.
# If a Cesarean delivery is indicated, I would like to be fully informed and to participate in the decision-making process.
# I would like (coach) present at all times if the baby requires a Cesarean delivery.
# I wish to have an epidural for anesthesia
# So I can view the birth, I would like the screen lowered just before delivery of the baby.
# If the baby is not in distress, the baby should be given to (coach) immediately after birth.

# I would prefer not to have an episiotomy unless absolutely required for the baby's safety.
# I would like a local anesthetic to repair a tear or an episiotomy.

# I would like to be allowed to choose the position in which I give birth, including squatting.
# I would like (partner) and/or nurses to support me and my legs as necessary during the pushing stage.
# I would like to try to deliver in a squatting position, using (coach) or a squatting bar for support.
# I would like a mirror available so I can see the baby's head when it crowns.
# I would appreciate having the room lights turned low for the actual delivery.
# I would appreciate having the room as quiet as possible when the baby is born.
# I would like to have the baby placed on my stomach/chest immediately after delivery.

# I would like to have (coach) cut the cord.
# I would like to hold the baby while I deliver the placenta and any tissue repairs are made.
# I would like to hold the baby for at least fifteen minutes before (he/she) is photographed, examined, etc.
# I would like to have the baby evaluated and bathed in my presence.
# I plan to keep the baby near me following birth and would appreciate if the evaluation of the baby can be done with the baby on my abdomen, with both of us covered by a warm blanket, unless there is an unusual situation.
# If the baby must be taken from me to receive medical treatment, (coach) or some other person I designate will accompany the baby at all times.
# I would prefer to hold the baby rather than have (him/her) placed under heat lamps.

# I would like a private room, if available.
# I would like to have the baby "room in" and be with me at all times.
# I would like the baby with me during the day but in the nursery at night, but brought to me for breastfeeding. (Note: be sure to check the breastfeeding preferences below.)

# I plan to breastfeed the baby and would like to begin nursing very shortly after birth.
# Unless medically necessary, I do not wish to have any bottles given to the baby (including glucose water or plain water).
# I do not want the baby to be given a pacifier.
# I would like more information about breastfeeding.
# I would like to meet with a Lactation Consultant.

C-Word -- Religious reasons, folks!!! Spare me the female c'n jokes and comparisons with the non-mozzy world, mkay?
# I would like the baby to be C'D before we check out of the hospital.

# I would like my other child/ren to be able to visit me and the baby in the hospital.
# I would prefer that no students, interns, residents or non-essential personnel be present during my labor or the birth.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

A Quick Hello

More like a quick Salaam Alaikum

sorry i haven't posted.. still trying to process everything that has happened and what i need to do....


on the flip side.. this saturday my sister is throwing me a baby shower. the first i've ever had. I'm starting to feel the excitement i'm supposed to feel as a pregnant woman. alhamdulillah.


trying to enjoy my spring break...

lots of stuff to fill ya'll in on.. but it'll have to wait...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Sorry for not posting..

I've been exhausted (and in pain) for about a week. This baby is really taken a toll on me.... make dua..

nothing big to talk about.. so just wanted to let everyone know I'm alright.. nothing new, interesting or exciting...

By the way.. I need to update my blog roll.. who is out there that reads me?? i'd like to link you to my site, if that's alright....

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Maybe I Should Start A Meme...

Random picture of something I read on a bathroom stall. I had just dropped off my best friend at the airport. She was starting a new phase in her life and I had no idea when I would see her again. I truly felt devastated to say good bye to her. She meant so much to me - more than any person had. I never really had a friend like her. I cried and cried.. stopped off at a pizza place.. used the restroom.. and read this..

Anyone have any random pics of random significance???

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Keeping Busy/Just a Footnote.

That's pretty much what I've done all weekend.

Friday night was a Family Movie Night at my school so that kept me away from home...

Saturday morning I went to the masjid to a lecture. Then, I took my son to a mall on the other side of town to buy him some much needed pants (I'm afraid his needs will get lost in the New Baby Shuffle come May) and 1-on-1 time with his super cool Mom (that would be moi). Then I dropped him off at home and my friend took me to a new cafe and we ate canollis. Later, my son and I stuffed ourselves silly at another friend's house.

So I was out and about from 9 am until 10 pm. I didn't get any work done at home but at least I wasn't moping around all day, alhamdulillah.

Today I had to go to a meeting in the morning and then a halaqa in the afternoon. And now I'm here.

Alright, enough of the play-by-play.

Last night I had a dose of Lonely Bitterness. Around 2:30 a.m. I woke up with the worst heart burn!!! My fault for eating so much, so late. I was completely out of Tums!! So by 4:30 a.m. I couldn't take it anymore and drove down the street to a 7-11 for my Tums fix. It was worth it.

**the rest of this post was deleted from the blog, and therefore, my memory.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

I Hate The Flu

That's all I have to say about that.

Friday, February 22, 2008


I'm coming down with whatever bug that is floating around here.. At least it is Friday and I have the weekend to rest it off. So Insha Allah by Monday I should be fine.

I didn't drink much water today. I think that may be one of the triggers to my back aches. I had been so good all week but today it slipped my mind. Funny - I'm sick too, and now is when I'd need it the most.. but I forgot..

So on my way home, I turned down a neighborhood that is up the street from my house. I had to stretch my back so I turned to my left and then oops - the lady driving in front of me stopped her car in the middle of the street and I rear ended her. I wasn't going very fast and we didn't see any damage so she didn't care to trade info. But it shook me up. I cried all the way home and my son just sat silently.. once in awhile saying that everything is fine and that he'd check the damage on the car (my soon-to-be 10 year old acting like such the man now, subhan allah..).

I'm exhausted. I think I'll go lay down..

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

More Thoughts...

The best thing I can do for myself right now is to continue living my life the way I have been...

I teach full time during the week. Weekends I usually just stay home, or attend events that are sponsored by the organization I work for. I keep busy being a part of the outreach committee for this organization.. and we basically plan events, fundraisers, etc.

What else? I read a lot and I watch movies. I like to hang out in bookstores and coffee shops by myself because whenever I have someone with me, they kind of take away that special closeness I feel when I'm just browsing books and drinking my coffee.

Did H share in this life with me? To a certain extent, and as far as he felt comfortable. We are two verrrrry different people. I can be both extremely social but value spending time alone or with my family. I don't need to always be talking on the phone and going shopping, comparing recipes and gossiping about others people's lives. My husband is extremely introverted. He makes few friends and holds them very dear. He will attend an occasional event, but big crowds turn him off. He can handle praying in large groups but once salah is over he says his salaams and is out the door. Me - I like to stay back and visit.

So we are different.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Oh My Aching Back

Holy cow.. my back hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrts...

It keeps me up at night. I tried the pillow thing.. the heating pad thing... and still I am up til past 1 am every single night trying to sleep while my back feels like it is going to fall apart. Last night I was so miserable I actually sprouted crocodile tears.. whining to myself out loud. At 1 am.

And I have 3 MORE MONTHS TO GO!! Ya Rabb!!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 7, 2008

At least...

With all the problems I think I have in my life..

At least I am not turning into a tree...

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Good Things

My dad used to always tell me that good things and bad things come in threes.

So I've had two straight days that were just great *masha allah*.. so Insha Allah tomorrow will be the third :-)

Some coworkers and I met up for Thai food after work. One of the tutors at school is moving away so it was a kind of a going away dinner for her.

It as fun.. I could laugh and forget about all the stupid stuff going on in life. Alhamdulillah....

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Random Meeting

It's funny how your day doesn't go exactly how you expect it, but in the end you realize why. Subhan Allah.

Let me be more specific.

This month there has been extra curricular activities on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tuesdays I stay after to help assist the teacher because the class is big and the ages are from 1st grade to 4th.

Today I was stuck at the school until 5 (should have been out by 4:30) because some parents were late picking up their children. I was slightly annoyed but whatever. Then when I was driving home, I was less then a mile from my house when I realized I left my purse in my classroom. So I drove home, brought my things inside, prayed maghrib and decided to head back to the school. The weather is bad and I didn't want to risk being stuck without it.

Before I left I asked my mom if she could spare $5.. I wanted to stop by a coffee shop and treat myself to a decaf breve latte & cranberry scone. tee hee. She gave me the cash and I was on my way.

For whatever reason.. I dawdled a bit. I did get my purse, but instead of going to the coffee ship down the street from the school.. I drove back to my side of town. I put my last $20 I had saved for gas in my tank (Insha Allah it lasts me to pay day!!)and decided to go to the big Starbucks that I rarely go to. It is connected to a bookstore and I had it in mind to order my stuff, walk around the bookstore for a bit and just go home. I am by myself, mind you.

When I finally made it to SB, out of the corner of my eye I saw someone who looked like the husband of my friend (one I have not mentioned). After ordering I turn to double check and subhan Allah it was this friend!

I ended up staying 3 hours at the SB chatting away with my friend. Her husband left to let us be alone. It felt so normal for a change.. I felt like my old self. Alhamdulillah.

So why am I so philosophical? Because IF I hadn't been late leaving school.. IF I hadn't forgotten my purse and decided to go back... IF I had decided to go to a different coffee shop... Well who knows what if. I guess as Muslims we don't dwell on the things or choices we didn't or should've made... but really... If I had taken the easy way out on things.. I'd have missed out on seeing my friend.

I benefitted so much from seeing her. I thank Allah for making things different today. I thank Allah for making it meant to be that I run into this friend. Alhamdulillah for the small stuff.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Quotes for the day

My son said two things today. One was funny (like, duuuuuh!) and the other was touching.

It snowed a little over here and school was delayed two hours. We were backing out of the drive way. By not the streets were clear. My son says:

Look Mom! It didn't snow on the road!

Yeah.. I won't let him live that down.. ever.

Then we were just driving and he was looking out the window and says:

It's so beautiful it makes me want to cry...

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Something Better

Last night I hung out with my son.

It was a great evening because we haven't spent time like this in a long time.

Our school had a basketball night last night and he really wanted to go.. but the odds were against us and I decided that we shouldn't go (I had locked my keys in my car and we were waiting for the locksmith to come open the car).

We went grocery shopping together and I got him the candy he wanted (which he never asks for).

We went through the Taco Bell drive thru for dinner.

We came home, ate our fast food and decided on what movie to order On Demand (Pay-per-view). We settled on Harry Potter 5, which we'd already seen. We watched the movie, bundled up under a comforter. He passed out before the movie ended.

It was one of the best Saturday nights I'd had in a long time. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Where to start?

Hmm. I guess with the shiny happy stuff.

Baby Dept.

My belly is growing every day... subhan allah if you'd ask me yesterday I'd say I'm getting big. But today I went to a baby shower and realized I'm still pretty tiny. Alhamdulillah - I'm not blowing up *yet*...

I feel my little guy kicking all the time. He likes to dance on my bladder. Frequently. I use the bathroom so much I feel like I'm developing a special relationship with my toilet.

Religion Dept.

I am happy to report that my Eman Levels are increasing every day Alhamdulillah. I am reading Qur'an.. jotting down ayahs in a notebook and making notes on things... and I go back and read them and they have been a great benefit to me.

My prayers are better too, alhamdulillah.

General Stuff Dept.

I was sick all day yesterday. Stayed in bed and watched movies.

**the rest of this post was deleted from this blog, and therefore, my memory ***