Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Can I at least get a milkshake?

Been awake since 5 am. On my feet. Made suhoor, went to work and was on my feet for 8 solid hours. Come home. Make the food he wants. Takes me til Iftar to make. Alhamdulillah he is happy.

After maghrib, after cleaning the dishes... I made my one plea. The one thing I've wanted for the past week... the one thing I can't stop thinking about...

'Will you take me to get a milkshake?'

No.. it's too cold for milkshakes.



hi i'm burnt out... what's your name?

Monday, September 24, 2007

Ramadan Ramblings

So yeah... a lot has happened in the last two months. I got married, and then pregnant like RIGHT AWAY. I wasn't planning on having kids w/ my husband so fast, but poor planning on my part (oops - forgot to get pills) and allah's will prevailed. So there you have it. I'm P-R-E-G-N-A-N-T.

I really wanted to wait like a year or two to get to know my husband and married life. I figured - the first year will suck (as many have told me) and the second year should be somewhat better. So in my simple head I thought "Ok Jilbabble... just make it through the first year, enjoy him the second... and THEN try for kids." Well it looks like it's not going to happen that way.

Am I bitter? Nah. I'm indifferent. I should have planned better. And in the end it is Allah's will and that's that. Get over it, Jilbabble.


I haven't told hardly anyone here. Obviously my husband and my mom and a few friends but that is it. I found out like the day after period was due. A few days later I started to bleed a little and I retook the pregnancy test and it was still positive. Went to the doctor, thought I was miscarrying.. fast forward to now I seem to be fine alhamdulillah.

My son doesn't know yet. I figure I'll tell him right before I make an 'official' announcement (i.e. telling my boss I won't be finishing the school year - tee hee!).


Yes I am fasting. At first it was fine but lately it is getting harder and harder. I don't feel like eating the things I prepare for suhoor. I swallow the food begrudgingly and try not to gag. I'm not eating enough bread/pasta/whatever in the morning to keep my belly full. Made some rice tonight so I'll eat that tomorrow morning.

Any ladies out there fast while pregnant (FWP)?

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Wednesday, September 12, 2007