I Hate The Flu

That's all I have to say about that.

Oopsie

I'm coming down with whatever bug that is floating around here.. At least it is Friday and I have the weekend to rest it off. So Insha Allah by Monday I should be fine.

I didn't drink much water today. I think that may be one of the triggers to my back aches. I had been so good all week but today it slipped my mind. Funny - I'm sick too, and now is when I'd need it the most.. but I forgot..

So on my way home, I turned down a neighborhood that is up the street from my house. I had to stretch my back so I turned to my left and then oops - the lady driving in front of me stopped her car in the middle of the street and I rear ended her. I wasn't going very fast and we didn't see any damage so she didn't care to trade info. But it shook me up. I cried all the way home and my son just sat silently.. once in awhile saying that everything is fine and that he'd check the damage on the car (my soon-to-be 10 year old acting like such the man now, subhan allah..).

I'm exhausted. I think I'll go lay down..

More Thoughts...

The best thing I can do for myself right now is to continue living my life the way I have been...

I teach full time during the week. Weekends I usually just stay home, or attend events that are sponsored by the organization I work for. I keep busy being a part of the outreach committee for this organization.. and we basically plan events, fundraisers, etc.

What else? I read a lot and I watch movies. I like to hang out in bookstores and coffee shops by myself because whenever I have someone with me, they kind of take away that special closeness I feel when I'm just browsing books and drinking my coffee.

Did H share in this life with me? To a certain extent, and as far as he felt comfortable. We are two verrrrry different people. I can be both extremely social but value spending time alone or with my family. I don't need to always be talking on the phone and going shopping, comparing recipes and gossiping about others people's lives. My husband is extremely introverted. He makes few friends and holds them very dear. He will attend an occasional event, but big crowds turn him off. He can handle praying in large groups but once salah is over he says his salaams and is out the door. Me - I like to stay back and visit.

So we are different.

Oh My Aching Back

Holy cow.. my back hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrts...

It keeps me up at night. I tried the pillow thing.. the heating pad thing... and still I am up til past 1 am every single night trying to sleep while my back feels like it is going to fall apart. Last night I was so miserable I actually sprouted crocodile tears.. whining to myself out loud. At 1 am.

And I have 3 MORE MONTHS TO GO!! Ya Rabb!!!!!!!!

At least...

With all the problems I think I have in my life..



At least I am not turning into a tree...